Balanced Christian Lifestyle

You can't take and turn the christina life into an attack on someone else.  Here In the states I am questioning what God wants with me here in Collegedale.  Pastor Ken Rodgers had a sermon today about living inside of a box.  Going with the flow of how the world is, and taking it as normal.  I don't want to be normal anymore.  I don't want to live a sedentary lifestyle. I see my family here and they are living the normal life.  Get married, get a job, have some kids, get some dogs and treat them like little humans.  Well, I just don't think I am up to it.  I don't think that is all God has in store for me.  Ministry wise, how am I getting involved? Today there was a skit at church about this guys spiritual life.  And it spanned his life from 6 till when he was 70.  It presented how he wasn't involved in the church or community too much through the years. And how at the age of 70 he is just now getting involved, going overseas to work at an orphanage.  I don't want to be like that, as sweet as his story is, his heart is in the right place.  I don't want to wait 47 more years before I start doing things for God.  I want to be a missionary overseas, away from the norms of our society.  And I want to become a pastor and work for God.  And pastor the people who have struggled with sexual temptation like me.  I want to shed light to the darkness.  My grandparents have recently talked seriously about going to Africa for a year or two.  And it has been the cause of discussion in our family, many are for it, and many are against it.  I happen to be one of the one's for it.  I really think this would be the best decision of their lives.  I really challenge the rest of our family to accept their decision whichever way they choose.  And start thinking about becoming missionaries themselves.  Because we all have a lot of growing to do, and it can't all be accomplished in Collegedale, as much as I wish that were true my whole life.