Divinity or Human nature?

Ever since I was a child I wanted to be an amazing baseball player.  I wanted to be known for my abilities at Americas favorite past time.  When I started realizing that dream wasn't going to happen it was a troubling, and humbling experience.  To shift my focus from something so narrow, and straight forward, to something so amazing and yet complicated.  Growing up a christian and yet idolizing something is a bit of an oxymoron.  I always had some problem or Idol as a kid, Video games, Lust, TV, Macoroni and Cheese, but to me the biggest idol for me growing up was competitive sports.  I loved them, I would venture out to say I loved sports more than God.  It was all that I would dream about at night, and I would combine all of my guilty pleasures as well.  Before the games I would play video games, eat my maccaroni and cheese, then would go to the games and hope beautiful girls would come, so that I could impress and feel whole.  It wasn't untill College that I truly understood my sins.  That I figured out that all I had put up so high in life, was not important, not only was it not important, but it was not significant to my salvation or anybody else's salvation.  You see college was where I became a christ centered human being, its where I finally started to get uncomfortable with my sinful nature, its where the divinity of God came into my life and showed me how sinful I was.  How much I needed christ.  This time, and place has showed me how much I need Jesus, and how much he needs me.  Softball is not as important to me, its not what keeps me going anymore.  And my dream of being known for my softball skills is going to end tonight, when I will play for the fifth and final time in the all night softball tournament.  You see with this sport, and this venue, all-night softball, I have received much notoriety.  I have become known for my skills in this sport.  But that is going to end.  And what is next? What will I put all my effort into after this fateful night? Christ died for my sins, and I as well have died to myself this day.  God has been preparing my heart for the last 23 years for ministry for him.  And although I have worked for him, preached for him, gone door to door, and shared my faith for him before tonight.  This is a crossroads of the Jay that was, and the Jay that will become.  For 23 years I have felt that I couldn't be like christ, that I shouldn't even try to be like him, what is the use at trying to be divine.  And today I understand that only through christ can I become like him, only from the divine. Christ is at the center of my life today, he is who I want to live for, he is who I want to dream about at night, not some softball tournament championship, not some 15 minutes of fame, but rather his sacrifice for me, and his eternal kingdom.  So tonight, as I retire from competitive softball, and competitive sports at Southern, I pick up another uniform.  Which is the armor of God, and I will journey into some of the biggest adventures that the world has to offer, spreading the gospel of Jesus Christ.  I am so thankful for my gift of softball for many years of impressing, wowing, and befuddling people in the stands, people that I admire. But I am more thankful of my spiritual gifts the holy spirit has given me.  Because it is by these gifts that I can fulfill  not a human superficial plan, but God's plan for my life, a divine plan, that will help me fulfill my purpose on this earth, and secure my eternal destiny.