Africa Preparation, God please bless me, and keep me in your arms.

Its a funny thing to prepare your self for missionary work.  I say funny because I don't know what the heck I am doing.  I put up a good front, but I really have no clue what I am in for, or how to prepare myself. Since making the decision to go my prayer life has struggled, thats a hard thing to admit, but its the truth.  I don't want to put up a front anymore, because I am not a perfect Christian, I struggle with my commitment to God, I struggle with believing in him.  I am at a point in my life where my faith is developing, God is molding me into the person he wants me to be.  But sometimes, I don't let him do that, I get preoccupied with the things of this world.  I feel like this stint in Africa will give God time to mold me and make me more like the man he wants me to be.  I don't want to shorten, or neglect my preparation for my life ahead.  I want to be a good Husband, a good father, a good elder, and a good friend.  I believe that I will receive a blessing wherever I go and whatever I do in my life, but God has given me a special opportunity, and a special glimpse of things to come through this missionary experience in Africa.